Oh Crap! – Musings of an Unperfect Mommy

Losing Consciousness

October 21, 2018

I was watching a rare interview with George Harrison last night (apparently it was his last one four years before he died), and he talked a lot about being conscious so I decided to see what it means to be conscious:
- Aware of and responding to one’s surroundings; awake
- Having knowledge of something; aware
Well, that got me to thinking – how often have I been truly awake and aware lately? Not much. I live a fairly solitary life being a mother and homemaker which also means being on auto-pilot a lot of the time. Housework, meals, parenting – days can go by without much awareness of them at all or feeling like you’re actually alive because you’re busy all the time instead of aware. A kind of loss of consciousness which I think happens to many of us no matter where we work or what we do. It also happens when you are depressed – kind of like that time loss I mentioned in a recent post. So sometimes I feel like I lost consciousness somewhere along the way in the last 10 years and that I’m slowly waking up. Does that make sense? Yes it does.

The question is how to become conscious again? I think it starts by being more aware of living your day. Watching the squirrels outside your back door. Taking a shower and just enjoying that shower with nothing else on your mind. Enjoying time talking with your family around the dinner table and really listening instead of jumping in to talk. There are many ways to be in the moment so there is just not one right way.

So, as I continue waking up and try not to mourn the apparent loss of time that depression and other worries took from me, I’m taking the time to become more aware of and take more part in life. It’s where I need to start to really live again.

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October 21, 2018

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