Oh Crap! – Musings of an Unperfect Mommy

Best Intentions

March 8, 2018

This is a two part post – the first part written July 2017 and the second August 2017. Let the guilt begin!

So, this week I’m leaving for a vacation – a very long awaited and needed vacation. I knew it was coming all year long, and I was hoping to be 50 pounds lighter for it, but another family crisis (or three) hit, and I shelved that. Again. As this month approached I felt panicky. So, I started to drink more water (which I needed to do anyway), and started to throw out caffeine and sugar (which are my Achilles heal and my nemesis). Have I lost anywhere near 50 pounds? Nope, but I am starting to feel a little healthier.

I decided last week that I would just do what I can before my trip, and then start over when I get home. As if to punctuate this, I found Richard Simmons “Never Give Up” at a used bookstore today. I’m going to take that book with me to help jump start my goals. However, I already read the first chapter and what I have to realize is this: it is going to take time. Just like it took time to get out of debt and time to get my house in order, it is going to take time to cultivate new habits to get my body in better shape. I also have to stop bad mouthing myself and start taking myself under my own wings. No one else is going to do it so it’s up to me. Richard Simmons did it on his own and I can too. Sure it’s easier if you have help, but many of us don’t so we do what we can. So, in August, I’m going to do a reboot of sorts: shine up my food mover, make menu plans from the meals in all the Richard Simmons books I have, and get started.

August 2017:

I had my vacation and came back a different person. I walked a lot while I was in California and got to really enjoy that. The town my son lives in has lots of stores within walking distance and it was great to be able to do that. At first I thought I was going to die from all the walking, but the more I walked the better I felt. I didn’t feel hungry much either – must have been all that walking and being in the sun. My skin also started clearing up which I couldn’t believe. It was great. Then I came home. I have to drive to every store I want to go to here. I’ve had so many appointments since I got back I’ve not had much time to just relax and digest all that happened to me on vacation. So, I need to make an actual plan and stick to it. My housework routines are basically in place so I can add in health routines now. Which actually are every bit as (if not more important as) the housework.

I am almost finished reading “Never Give Up” – I need to copy the Passport Me statements so I can give myself the pep talk I need every day. I’m still in my drinking water mode and that has helped a lot. I’ve gone off the wagon a time or two in regard to caffeine and sugar, but I can usually talk myself out of eating them. I still need to do some kind of exercise every day- I have no idea why I’m so resistant on this one. It’s not that I can’t do it – it’s more like I keep finding excuses so I don’t have to. And after finding out how much I enjoyed it on vacation, my logic escapes me.

Anywho, this has gotten long so I’ll wrap up. I’m going to get back in a groove as soon as I can – I’ve lost weight and want to continue that trend. I’ve backslidden a little, but I can always start over and form new habits that will stick. I forgot I had a book called “It’s Never Too Late To Begin Again” so maybe I’ll read that one next. And I’ll never give up.

Except I did. What I need to do is find a way to keep going amidst all the other stuff. I think that’s my problem – I give up to easily in the face of everyone else’s problems when I need to keep going no matter what. At least I’m slowly getting my house back together again so that’s something. This living stuff – not for the weak.

No comments
Comments

Leave a Comment

Click here to cancel reply.

Name *

E-mail Address *
(will not be published)

Website

Comment

Δ

» Best Intentions » Oh Crap! – Musings of an Unperfect Mommy

Best Intentions

March 8, 2018

Comments

Leave a Comment

About Me

Recent Posts

Archives