Oh Crap! – Musings of an Unperfect Mommy

A Morning in Winter

January 17, 2017

Well, okay, I’m not actually going to talk about a morning in winter – too depressing. It’s cold and dreary for the fourth or fifth day in a row. So cold and dreary I’m losing track of what day it is. What I am going to do is a post on what’s going on here. I just needed a title. Heh.

Last week was a shock to the system with the deaths of David Bowie and Alan Rickman. Then, this last Monday, Glenn Frey of the Eagles died. WTF?? So I cried a lot. I kind of needed to cry anyway – it had been building up again without me realizing it. They’ve documented we do need to cry for emotional release so if you need to cry do it.

*Sound of needle scratching across record*

I wrote those opening lines a year ago (a post that ended in a folder) and I’m still reeling from the deaths of those beloved people. Unfortunately, Prince, George Michael and Carrie Fisher’s deaths rounded out a dismal year. And a year later, we are again on the fifth or sixth day of no sun and I’m just barely trudging along. Winter and I are not friends. I like parts of it, but not all of it.

I had also written a bunch of crap about resolutions so I deleted all that since I’m not going to do any of that this year. I’m going to do something called living instead. Growth and change will come over time whether intentional or not. I can’t keep living in regrets.

The last few days I’ve watched a few movies: “Wuthering Heights” – the good one with Ralph Fiennes and Juliette Binoche; “The Sound of Music” (including most of the extras that go with it); and “Into Great Silence”. That last one is a documentary on the monks who live in the Carthusian Monastery in the French Alps. It is an incredibly quiet and relaxing video. I want more quiet/solitude in my life and have no clue how to get it. I’m a weird type – wanting downtime when I’m busy and when I’ve got downtime I don’t have a clue what to do with it. *sigh*

I’ve been reading a book on emotional sobriety which is very overdue reading. But you know what they say, when you’re ready the teacher shows up. Guess I’m ready.

I’ve been obsessing way too much about skin care and the state of my skin. I think I need to just do what I can, cover up the rest of the mess, and end the obsessing. I see other women my age doing the same thing so I think it’s a menopause thing. Bah!

I have figured out that sugar and caffeine are not my friends either. I have noticed that they both throw off my moods and my skin. Oh, wait a minute – what was I just saying? So, maybe it’s time to really cut down on both. I did the no caffeine thing for about a month and it made a difference so I know what I have to do. I had way too much Starbucks last year too and I’ve already cut way back on that.

I went grocery shopping for the week this morning and need to get a new menu plan in place for the rest of winter. Tonight it’s going to be a pork roast that I can just slip in the oven and let cook all afternoon. Add vegetables and maybe a peach cobbler and dinner is done. Well, in my mind it is anyway. Hmm, maybe I should read “The I Hate to Cook Book” by Peg Bracken – that would cheer me up a little.

And that’s all I have on this cold and dreary January morning. Time to eat lunch and then get that roast cooking. After that we’ll finish school and I have a couple of errands to run.

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On January 27, 2017 at 1:25 AM, Julie said:

Hoe this new year finds you well and that you have a happy birthday!

On January 27, 2017 at 1:26 AM, Julie said:

Ugh ... Hope!!! Hope this new year ...
I guess I should post comments while watching Chopped. Oops.

On January 30, 2017 at 2:25 PM, java_queen said:

HA - I love Chopped too. :-) I've been thinking of you lately so I'm glad you stopped in to say "hi". I hope all is well with you and yours too and thanks for the birthday wishes.

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